GET INTO THE GROOVE
"Boy you've got to prove your love to me, yeah!"
I really have got my groove on and I'm feeling totally confident about where my business is heading, and from the outside looking in it looks like a good year for everyone.
On the inside you may be feeling everyone but you is having an awesome time.
I just wanted to share with you something I wrote at the end of last year, I wasn't in a fab place, I was still stuck in the repetitive cycle of not feeling good enough, and at some point
I may return there, you see every time you take a leap your ego (that's the voice in your head telling you your crap) tries very hard to pull you back into its perceived 'safe' environment just in case something goes wrong.
It's time to remember to 'prove you love yourself', trust your instincts and take tiny steps out of your comfort zone daily.
Any way groove on and read below, and if you resonate with any of it please come and borrow my shoulder, I'd love to help you take the next tiny step x
The wrong choices – only in 7” vinyl
Things are getting better, getting better all the time…
I’d like to think that it was my life anthem, that things would get better all the time, and that for the hurt and frustration, hard work and putting yourself out there that at some point the record going around on the turntable of life would stop jumping into all the scratches picked up from all those moments you dropped out for a moment and would feel free to play all the happy songs you hear when you listen to your favorite movie track, you know the one you were in ore of when you were little…the one you thought would become your dream life.
I haven’t listened, you know really listened to a good song for ages. I’m sure like most of us from our era your Sunday afternoons were sat recording your favorite tracks on a tape player from the Radio 1 Top 40 and sometimes I wish I had those tracks with me right now to remind me how I was feeling when I was young.
I was watching a film 13 going on 30, you may know it, it’s were a young girl is having her 13th birthday and all of a sudden she has jetted off as if by magic to her life as a 30 year old, and she has become a real biatch, she has no friends, she has distanced her best friend and basically is a really horrible person who has made a lot of wrong choices. Obviously it is an American ‘dream’ film and she saves the day and catches her man (the best friend) but it made me think of all the wrong choices we make daily.
As children we have such high hopes, which in my own experience are constantly shattered by ‘real life’ expectations – we must, we should, you can’t, you will and it’s just not done that way!
I’m not sure what happened when I was younger but something was missed out somewhere along the line, that made me feel like making the wrong choices was what I had to do, that probably sounds a bit strange, but I mean I think somebody forgot to tell me what I was meant to do – no hugs, no answers to my questions, how to stand up for myself, how to know what I believed in, why even though I always did good things did I get blamed for the bad, why I did bad things when I wanted to be good, and a million other song titles I am sure I could write that everyone of us at some point in our life would resonate with.
At some point in my 20’s all these things should have been ironed out and in my 30’s you would think my life would be right back on track and playing full blast, but I lost my 20’s by making bad decisions in my teens, and although I have the most amazing children, I never found what I was supposed to find in my 20’s which left me still lost looking for my song in my 30’s.
You see I still haven’t found my anthem, I’ve been so busy making wrong choices that I have spent so much time listening to other peoples anthems, with all their scratches that I wanted to fix, so that they could blast out loud their songs, I never allowed time to put my anthem together, and now I’m so lost in this emptiness of silence I can’t hear the music, my voice has got croaky and my dance moves aren’t so hot and I feel like I’m stuck in the perpetual scratch jumping back and forth, trying to learn how to jump out and find the next song to inspire me and tell me, I know why I’m here it’s for that.
“never stop listening to the music, it fills your soul with joy and allows you choose the next song”
“life isn’t only 7”, make it 12 inches”